Lotus
The kind of life
December
Recover
Moment
Hooray!
Hypnos
Robin Hood
Higher than the birds
Butterflies
Mistakes
Caroline
The Storm
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My first album, started in the summer of 2025, finished at the start of 2026. Recorded from home with a small laptop, a small MIDI keyboard, an audio interface, a microphone and mic stand, headphones, a guitar, some cables and a blanket.

I don’t want to gatekeep my music, so you can listen and download it here, for free, either track by track or the whole album at once.

  • Oh no, there is sadness in my head!

    Reload, help me get away from it!

    Let's go somewhere else where no one cries

    And wait 'till we find the paradise!

    Explosions in your head.

    You took me by the hand

    And dragged me in your sleep!

    That's me!

    Knock knock, it is me, give me a smile!

    You know, if I could I'd give you mine.

    Let's go somewhere far away from here!

    You know that the happiness is near.

    Explosions in your head.

    You took me by the hand

    And dragged me in your sleep!

    That's me!

    Your past! You're past!

    Your past! You're past!

    Explosions in your head.

    You took me by the hand

    And dragged me in your sleep!

    That's me!

    Let's go somewhere else where no one cries

    And wait 'till we find the paradise!

  • Give me your nights, empty the days,

    As if we live in a fairytale!

    Sometimes the difference is hard to tell.

    Sometimes indifference is hard to bare.

    Empty your eyes, tell me your name,

    As if you'll never hear mine again!

    Sometimes a smile is all it takes.

    Sometimes it takes my smile away.

    Drinking the moon, smoking the sun,

    Checking her pulse, wait for a while;

    The kind of life you would die for!

    Scream in your sleep, or I'll do it first!

    When body is numb, the hearts will burst.

    Your blood is red and that's a curse.

    I can't believe I've said it first!

    Holding your veins, holding them tight,

    We'll never get bored while living this life;

    The kind of life you would die for!

    Stop her!

    Stop her!

    Holding your head, holding your breath,

    You look like a girl who never waits.

    You look like a girl who never sleeps.

    You look like a girl who never dreams.

    Tying the rope, climbing the chair,

    Please come back down and let's go to bed!

    The kind of life you would die for!

    Stop her!

    Stop her!

    You told me you could fly!

    Liar! You told me you could fly!

    You told me you could fly!

    Liar! You told me you could fly!

    Stop her!

    Stop her!

    Stop her!

    Stop her!

    Stop her, stop her, stop her, stop her,

    'cause she's the kind of life you would die for!

    Stop her, stop her, stop her, stop her

    'cause she's the kind of life you would die,

    you would die for!

  • I am young and I'm uptight,

    I've never been scared of the dark,

    But still it's hard to fall asleep.

    An empty room, an empty mind,

    An empty house, an empty glass,

    At least the glass I can feel!

    It all happened in the dark,

    Maybe I've been kinda surprised,

    Maybe a part of me has died!

    I am young, and even though

    I've never been scared of the dark,

    I still wish you were here.

    I am stuck in December, like it happened before,

    And it starts to haunt me all night.

    So I'll try to remember what has happened before

    You and me fell apart.

    Useless now, was useless then,

    We always knew it has to end,

    But still I counted your heartbeats.

    I remember when I said that I will never lose my head,

    Well, that's a promise I can't keep!

    It all happened in the dark, maybe I've been kinda surprised,

    Maybe a part of me has died!

    When you said let's live this day like it's the last one that we've got,

    I didn't think that you were right!

    I am stuck in December, like it happened before,

    And it starts to haunt me all night.

    So I'll try to remember what has happened before

    You and me fell apart.

    There's a car, and there are two,

    and there is me, and there is...

    Well, there's no you!

    I am stuck in December, like it happened before,

    And it starts to haunt me all night.

    So I'll try to remember what has happened before

    You and me fell apart.

    I am stuck in December!

    I am stuck in December!

    I am stuck in December!

    I am stuck in December!

    I am stuck in December, like it happened before,

    And it starts to haunt me all night.

    So I'll try to remember what has happened before

    You and me fell apart.

  • We're both awake,

    Let's write a song about it!

    I came prepared,

    So listen...

    We come in pairs,

    Let's conversate about it!

    My angel said

    There's no such thing, so doubt it!

    Recover, recover,

    There's always something new.

    Recover, recover,

    There's always something new.

    Recover, recover,

    There's always something new.

    Recover, recover!

    I've had enough,

    Now jump and fall upon me,

    But don't act like you've never cried before!

    Last time you swore

    You'll never do what I did,

    So don't act like you've never lied before!

    Delay your plans,

    There's something else you'll have to do!

    Crawl down to me!

    Fulfill your dirty destiny!

    Recover, recover,

    There's always something new.

    Recover, recover,

    There's always something new.

    Recover, recover,

    There's always something new.

    Recover, recover!

    I've had enough,

    Now jump and fall upon me,

    But don't act like you've never cried before!

    Last time you swore

    You'll never do what I did,

    So don't act like you've never lied before!

    I've had enough,

    Now jump and fall upon me,

    But don't act like you've never cried before!

    Last time you swore

    You'll never do what I did,

    So don't act like you've never lied before!

    I've had enough!

    I've had enough!

    I've had enough!

    I've had enough!

    I've had enough, enough!

  • I don't know, I don't know, I don't know!

    I don't know, I don't know!

    Everything changes, so can you?

    Catch the clouds around and carry them with you!

    Everything fades away, so can you let it go?

    I don't know, i don't know, I don't know!

    I don't know, I don't know!

    Sit on a mountain top and try to pick it up

    And see if you can stop before it breaks!

    Wait, I love it here!

    Wait, I love it!

    Wait, no need to stop the time,

    Just look up, up, up!

    Catch the stars around and carry them with you!

    Everything changes, so can you?

    I don't know, i don't know, i don't know!

    I don't know, i don't know!

  • It's a crystal world, but no one talks about it.

    And I'm always wrong, but you don't seem to mind it.

    If you really want that walk inside and find it,

    No one else but as will ever know we're hiding!

    We come and go, but no one stops to look us in the eyes!

    You never know, maybe we're only strangers telling lies.

    In loving you there's no excuse so hand me your desire,

    Desire, desire!

    The curtains fall and you are hanging, all is falling down,

    Despite a word of wisdom thrown inside your heart!

    This fire is burning all I once considered mine!

    Hooray, hooray, hooray!

    You're the antidote for my self-centred sadness.

    Well, I guess too bad that I will never want it!

    If you really want, then close your eyes and start it!

    Girl, you know that there is so much more inside.

    Say hooray, hooray!

    Say hooray, hooray, hooray, hooray!

    Say hooray, hooray!

    Say hooray!

    The curtains fall and you are hanging, all is falling down,

    Despite a word of wisdom thrown inside your heart!

    This fire is burning all I once considered mine!

    Oh, I wish there's something more in life!

    The curtains fall and you are hanging, all is falling down,

    Despite a word of wisdom thrown inside your heart!

    This fire is burning all I once considered mine!

    Hooray, hooray, hooray!

    Oh, how i wish there's more in life!

    How I wish there's more!

    Oh, how I wish there's more in life!

    How I wish there's more!

    Please just tell me, is there more?

    Please just tell me, is there more?

  • Lately I've been told that this is what dreams are made of.

    Lately I've been told that this is what dreams are made of.

    Lately I've been told that this is what dreams are made of.

    Lately I've been told that this is what dreams are made of.

    Lately I've been told that this is what dreams are made of.

    Lately I've been told that this is what dreams are made of.

    Lately I've been told that this is what dreams are made of.

  • Even though you're blind,

    You're still closing your eyes!

    Give me a hand and let me keep it!

    Forever's ending soon!

    They grow mouths and voices and scream for power,

    Doesn't matter who you kill!

    Hungry babies crawl up your walls and towers,

    You might be their next warm meal!

    Feel the warmth of blood all over your body!

    Tell me, who is colored now?

    Bombs are ticking, soon comes the holy fire!

    You can't buy your way out now!

    See her, remember her, last time you saw her she was only five!

    Now she'll wait five seconds before she takes your life!

    Your body, my choice, right?

    Don't worry, she's almost done!

    Take a good look at me!

    If you don't like my skin, I'll take yours instead!

    Stop crying, you're a man, remember?

    Don't worry, I'm almost done!

    Corpses falling, corpses falling down!

    See how hard we're working now?

    Say your prayer, say your prayer now!

    God is waiting here with us!

    Save eight billions, kill few hundreds,

    Because the hundreds lived on our behalf!

    Give me my life and let me keep it!

    Forever's ending now!

    With your flesh cut, cooked, prepared and served, ironic,

    You're not that white anymore!

    With so many meals in our feast, I wonder:

    Who's the richest of them all?

    Let's build our world back!

    Let's build our world back!

  • Ah, put your sunglasses on!

    Don't get too mad at me, girl,

    You know it never happened before!

    And while you're crying on the floor,

    Maybe you'll clean a bit as well, you know?

    Remember you're only mine!

    It's not that bad, just give it some time!

    I'm gonna go, you know I love the sun!

    It's not the end of the world,

    But still you're so dramatic, girl!

    Let's get the whole universe!

    No, I won't go without it!

    Let's get higher than the birds,

    I'm sure we'll find a way!

    I'm sure we'll find a way!

    Yeah, roll in peace and learn to fly,

    Just learn to fly!

    It's not the end of the world,

    But still you're so dramatic, girl!

    Let's get the whole universe!

    No, I won't go without it!

    Let's get higher than the birds,

    I'm sure we'll find a way!

    I'm sure we'll find a way!

    I'm sure we'll find a way!

    I'm sure we'll find a way!

    I'm sure we'll find a way!

    Let's not forget it's just a joke!

    Let's not forget it's just a joke!

    Let's not forget it's just a joke, oh!

    Let's not forget it's just a joke!

    Let's not forget it's just a joke!

    Let's not forget it's just a joke!

    La la lala la!

    It's not the end of the world,

    But still you're so dramatic, boy!

    Let's get the whole universe!

    No, I won't go without it!

    Let's get higher than the birds,

    I'm sure we'll find a way!

    I'm sure we'll find a way!

    I'm sure we'll find a way!

    I'm sure we'll find a way!

    I'm sure we'll find a way!

    Ah!

    Let's not forget it's just a joke!

    Let's not forget it's just a joke!

    Let's not forget it's just a joke, oh!

    Let's not forget it's just a joke!

    Let's not forget it's just a joke!

    Let's not forget it's just a joke!

    La la lala la!

    Ah, put your sunglasses on!

  • It's not that profound, unless you really see it,

    And if I got it right, you're not the one who set it up!

    Kill your mind, but first let me see it!

    Look below my chest, aren't there so many butterflies?

    You know it's not that hard, but still you're hesitating.

    Well, know that I don't mind, there is no need for you to rush.

    Take your time, but don't be late or else

    You might get stuck outside!

    No, I'm not giving up,

    Because I don't have a reason!

    You knocked at the door

    So loud that I couldn't hear it!

    I've locked it before,

    But if I got one more chance,

    I'd open up this time!

    It's not that profound, but still you want to see it!

    Well, darling, don't forget who was the one who set it up!

    Kill my mind, but don't forget to see it!

    There are no butterflies, unless you close your eyes.

    No, I'm not giving up,

    Because I don't have a reason!

    You knocked at the door

    So loud that I couldn't hear it!

    I've locked it before,

    But if I got one more chance,

    I'd open up this time!

    I'd open up this time, yeah!

    I'd open up this time!

    I'd open up this time, yeah!

    I'd open up this time!

    It's not that profound, unless you really see it right!

    No, I'm not giving up,

    Because I don't have a reason!

    You knocked at the door

    So loud that I couldn't hear it!

    I've locked it before,

    But if I got one more chance,

    I'd open up this time!

    No, I'm not giving up,

    Because I don't have a reason!

    You knocked at the door

    So loud that I couldn't hear it!

    I've locked it before,

    But if I got one more chance,

    I'd open up this time!

    No, I'm not giving up,

    Because I don't have a reason!

    You knocked at the door

    So loud that I couldn't hear it!

    I've locked it before,

    But if I got one more chance,

    I'd open up this time!

  • Hey sky, marry me,

    So that I can leave this place!

    Mirrors everywhere,

    But I can't see myself!

    Flowers grow from me

    Something beautiful.

    Snakes crawl in my chest,

    Fire flooding me!

    My walls are closing in

    Much more than you can see!

    Liars, everywhere!

    Lying about things that I don't even know!

    Words are thrown to me,

    Hang me from your speech!

    Mistakes, they happen!

    Mistakes, they happen!

    Mistakes, they happen!

    Mistakes, they happen!

    This world is wide and big,

    Much more than you and me!

    Go! Close your eyes and shut the door!

    I'm something that you don't want to see,

    I'm ugly!

    Kill me! Murder me!

    Write poems with my blood and hang them on the walls,

    Make me something else!

    Mistakes, they happen!

    Mistakes, they happen!

    Mistakes, they happen!

    Mistakes, they happen!

    Mistakes, they happen!

    Mistakes, they happen!

    Mistakes, they happen!

    Mistakes...

    Yes, you're leaving, yes, I know,

    But may I stay here before you go?

    Yes, you're leaving, yes, I know,

    But may I stay here before you go?

    Yes, you're leaving, yes, I know,

    But may I stay here before you go?

    Yes, you're leaving, yes, I know,

    But may I stay here before you go?

  • Choose a side,

    My sweet Caroline!

    We're just wasting time,

    Just say you're mine, now!

    One two three, one two three,

    Won't you just dance with me?

    Cover your eyes!

    We're in liar's paradise,

    So make a sacrifice!

    Just give me your heart!

    Places have feelings and after will feel like before,

    Everything that you knew, you do no more!

    I'll give you the power of time,

    So take me into your palm.

    Then go home and sleep,

    Or go home and set an alarm!

    Beautiful metaphor!

    Just like I'm all you're living for,

    Just like I'm all you're living,

    Just live and live!

    Beautiful metaphor!

    Just like I'm all you're living for,

    Just like I'm all you're living,

    Just live and live and live and live and live!

    Choose a side!

    We're just wasting time,

    My sweet Caroline!

    Just give me your heart!

    You're smiling like never before,

    You're walking and talking like never before!

    Just give me a second, a minute, an hour,

    And leave no more!

    Places have feelings and after will feel like before,

    Everything that you knew, you do no more!

    I'll give you the power of time,

    So take me into your palm.

    Then go home and sleep,

    Or go home and set an alarm!

    Beautiful metaphor!

    Just like I'm all you're living for,

    Just like I'm all you're living,

    Just live and live!

    Beautiful metaphor!

    Just like I'm all you're living for,

    Just like I'm all you're living,

    Just live and live and live and live and live!

    One two three, one two three,

    Won't you just dance with me?

    Cover your eye, speak when you have to speak,

    Open your heart, or just a half of it!

    One two three, one two three,

    Won't you just dance with me?

    Cover your eyes, speak when you have to speak,

    Open your heart, or just a half of it!

    Beautiful metaphor!

    Just like I'm all you're living for,

    Just like I'm all you're living,

    Just live and live!

    Beautiful metaphor!

    Just like I'm all you're living for,

    Just like I'm all you're living,

    Just live and live and live and live,

    and live and live and live and live,

    and live and live and live and live!

  • It's beautiful, it's beautiful, It's beautiful!

    I'm cold, it's beautiful, it's beautiful!

    Well, I remember when you said you felt a little cold

    And then I gave you this hand you ended up holding for so long!

    We were looking at eachother and dancing in the rain,

    But then I closed my eyes one second

    And the wind took you away.

    You said it's beautiful tonight,

    So beautiful that birds can't even fly right!

    You said just close the door, the rain will stay outside…

    You never said, you never said ooh,

    You never said, you never said the storm can start in you!

    You never said, you never said, you never said ooh,

    You never said, you never said the storm can in you!

    It's beautiful, it's beautiful, it's beautiful!

    You said it's beautiful, you said you hope the storm will never end,

    While I was doing all my best to make it go away!

    'Cause birds can't even fly and everything's a mess,

    But still you stay next to the window and you smile!

    So it's beautiful, tonight!

    The storm is so loud, I can't even hear my own thoughts right!

    You loved the storm so you made one on your own,

    And then you said goodbye, but never closed the door!

    You never said, you never said, you never said ooh,

    You never said, you never said the storm can start in you!

    You never said, you never said, you never said ooh,

    You never said, you never said the storm can start in you!

    You never said, you never said, you never said ooh,

    You never said, you never said the storm can start in you!

    You never said, you never said, you never said ooh,

    You never said, you never said the storm can start in you!

Lyrics

Album cover made by Jana Greer